Halfway Down

Alex

I don’t know how to be alive anymore.

I didn’t plan for this, didn’t ask for this, yet here I am.

Six months ago, the man I love offered me a promise I couldn’t accept. He couldn’t see the darkness inside me that had lived there since my brother’s death when we were just children. He didn’t know how broken I was, how unworthy of his love I felt. Why would he love me when my own parents couldn’t?

The day I stepped into the water was the day he learned of the monster I truly am but instead of running away Robin stayed by my side. He loves me more than I will ever deserve and I will spend the rest of my life making sure he knows how sorry I am.

I don’t know how to be alive anymore, but for him I will try.

Robin

I don’t know how to trust anymore.

I didn’t plan for this, didn’t ask for this, yet here I am.

For two years, Alex and I appeared to be on the same page, heading for a lifetime of moments together. One decision changed everything and I don’t know how to let go of the fear that lingers deep inside me. I spend my days watching him, waiting for the phone call to tell me that he’s gone again and this time he won’t be coming back.

When tragedy strikes our lives, I am terrified that this will be the moment I lose him again but I have to believe that we can make it through. I love Alex more than he thinks he deserves, but I will spend the rest of my life making sure he knows he is cherished.

I don’t know how to trust anymore, but for him I will try.

Halfway Down is a MM Romance featuring two men in love trying to survive the waves that keep crashing into their shores. Trigger warnings: suicidal ideation (intense depiction of depressive episodes), suicide attempt/death (drowning - graphic detail), traumatic childhood (kidnapping, molestation, murder - mentioned without graphic detail), the death of a character within the narrative.