Dirty Details

In 1977, at the age of 36, Jeffrey Cohen, a physicist at the University of Pennsylvania, was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. But it wasn't until 10 years later that the dirty details began, when the disease had progressed to the point where he could not transfer himself out of his wheelchair. That point is where his wife Marion begins her memoir of caregiving: If I had to explain it in three words, those words would be 'nights, ' 'lifting, ' and 'toilet.' And then, if I were permitted to elaborate further, I would continue, 'nights' does not mean lying awake in fear listening for his breathing. 'Lifting' does not mean dragging him by the feet along the floor. And 'toilet' does not mean changing catheters. But dirty details, Marion Cohen teaches us, involves more than nights, lifting, and toilet. There is the loss, anger, fear, and desperation that envelops the family. She reveals what it felt like to be consistently in dire straits with no real help or understanding, what she characterizes as society's conspiracy of silence. Chronicling their lives in the context of her husband's progressing disease, she discusses the raging emotions, the celebrations, the day-to-day routine, the arguments, the disappointments, and the moments of closeness. During the 15 years she cared for him at home, both continued to work on various projects, share in the rearing of their four children, and be very much in love. This powerful, honest narrative also delves into the process of making the nursing-home decision and those decisions Cohen made to put her and her family's life together again.