Suburbanite's Confessional

Since I was first published - someone had gone out of their way to expose my beliefs as a Christian; back in 1994 I originally gave my life to Christ but almost a walked away all together over what happened in Iowa. In Dirty Black Winter ("now re-issued") I wrote what happened of this and the events after my nervous breakdown. In 2013 this was originally written in a matter of four months. The book was written during the era I was still with lulu.com and now the files had been returned to me - and got the namesake up on CreateSpace.com and got the rest the "written by" up there.
I figured it was time I made this public - the main illustrators are me and an et. al. from the public domain as I pick the paintings based upon my time in Richmond. My world became weirder as I got published - as I wrote of some of this in An Eye In Shadows. ("This picks up at the end of An Eye In Shadows and shows other segments of Gothicfest 2005.") This book takes from my online journals, handwritten composition book and observations from message boards as well as blogs of authors who had stifled me since I first started. This book is a willful act of heresy as I face down King James Onlyists and pick them apart as I also pick apart rivals in the business too. I speak of my falling out with Sarah Rose as she had a missed chance to learn more about me from one of my classmates. She is better known as Scary Lady Sarah. I have known her ex-husband (took one of their photos.)
Legend Keeper was not playing for keeps -- as I am playing for blood; especially in the wake of Robin Williams passing away this took on an urgency. Is life a game?
This became even more so when I took on Lulu.com on the 4th of July as I was prepping this book for publication -- what Lulu.com did caused a lot of setbacks and hangups with getting my new works out there because I needed to babysit my back catalog. The hostility renewed when one of my authors passed away where it played out in a phone conversation where I told them they don't give a fuck about their longtimers -- they care more about those who can't vote and not have a say in their country. Than someone who published veterans and the disabled as well as single parents. So the exodus from Lulu.com with roster started too as they walked knowing what they pulled on me. The introduction exposes those who had lied to the masses about why they had Legend Keeper pulled. There is naming names and calling people to the rug in this as I called Ramsey Campbell to the rug for telling me to give up. This book is full of criticism of public figures so those who are going around trying to get this pulled. I cite the titles a few of them were published in and will be talk about being tossed from the HWA when the trustees turned out to be those who bullied the fuck out of me.
Warning in Advance: Difficult and controversial subject matter. Karen H. Koehler like Poppy Z. Brite with An Eye In Shadows had tried to stop publication of this so there is a special message to her in the introduction. I will not be broken. This book if you like Vincent Sakowski's Blender Fiction traits -- this also has slipstream tinged with Creative Nonfiction as when I wrote An Eye In Shadows. This goes with the catalog ties everything into each other -- you see Nick as the Atheist, the first era Christian, the misanthrope, and the reaffirmed who pulls no punches at all and acknowledges something from the Atheist years. This world is 4.54 Billion Years Old so those who are YECS will be irked by this so please put your kids to bed if you read this. I had just released my fourth collection and re-issued my second book too so go and follow along. This book talks about the solo works and my anthologies up to getting the second namesake published.