I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki: Conversations with My Psychiatrist

Baek Se-hee is navigating the complexities of modern life, juggling her successful career as a social media director with the burdens of emotional turmoil. Her world, once vibrant and full of promising opportunities, begins to feel suffocating as she grapples with feelings of despair and isolation. In a quest for understanding and healing, she turns to a psychiatrist, sparking a series of candid conversations that delve into the depths of her struggles and aspirations.

Through these dialogues, readers gain intimate insight into Se-hee’s mindset, revealing her yearning for connection and the poignant moments that resonate with anyone who has faced their own darkness. The stark juxtaposition of her personal crises against the backdrop of her seemingly perfect professional life illustrates the often-hidden battles many face behind closed doors.

The narrative explores themes of mental health, vulnerability, and the simple human desire for comfort, often symbolized by the beloved Korean dish, tteokbokki. These discussions emphasize the importance of acknowledging one's feelings and seeking solace not just in food, but in genuine connections with others.

Se-hee’s journey becomes a universal reflection on coping, identity, and the search for happiness amidst life’s challenges. Her story is both a testament to resilience and an invitation for dialogue about the importance of mental well-being.